Dear friends and visitors,
I know it has been a horribly long time since I have updated this site. Almost 2 years. I apologize for leaving you for so long. I know I didn't return all the email I promised either, and I am dreadfully sorry for that as well. Those of you who have ICQed me, I just don't have the time to use ICQ. The few times I have been online with ICQ, it was only for a few moments. Please drop me an email instead. At least until I can get a Chatroom going here.
I hate to tell you this again and again, but I cannot make you a vampire. I cannot ethically doom anyone to the depression that sets upon me and the ones that have become that were once close to me. Please do not send me requests for this, it devastates me.
For those of you who are concerned and send me kind thoughts, I have good days and bad days. Mostly good days anymore. I am finding a "soul" inside of myself and learning to enjoy being alone at times. I have given up on Sable. She has entered my life, and left it again repeatedly. I cannot count the times over the last two years. She is lost to who she once was and will never be the one I loved. I will always love her, but she will never be the same. To keep what small amount of sanity I have left about me, I am letting go.
I have let much of my past go. My confusion, my devestation, my hatred. I am learning to exist. It has taken many years.
The young ones, I am continuously here for. The lost ones, the forlorn ones. I am here for you. I will always be here for you. That will never change. If you seek a shoulder, if you seek some solace, if you seek some answers, I will do my best to help you. Remember, all of the answers you seek, you will find within yourself. As impossible as that may seem. I can only guide you. You will find what you need to find in your own time. That is the nature of life. Be patient, be still, and listen.
~Leasre
